My Anxious Heart

“Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life?” (Mt 6:27)

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Liturgical day
Eighth Sunday in Ordinary Time (A), March 2, 2014
Readings
Is 49:14–15; Ps 62:2–9; 1 Cor 4:1–5; Mt 6:24–34
Prayer
Listen to Jesus’ words on worry and anxiety. What worry or anxiety do you need to let go of and trust in God’s care for you?

My parents spoke German at home when they did not want the children to know what was being discussed, which was often the children themselves. It is a method parents use, with varying success, depending upon how well they have passed on the mother tongue. I was not very old when I heard my parents describe me as nervös and ängstlich. I understood enough German to know that I was being described as “high-strung” and “anxious.” I can report that their description of me was accurate and has not necessarily become less accurate with the passing of time.

When Jesus instructs us, therefore, “Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear,” it is something that I struggle to hear. And when Jesus tells us to “look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” and to “consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these,” I worry about how I am supposed to put these spiritual insights into action and live my life according to them.

These passages challenge me to let worry go and depend upon God’s care for me, yet there remains a nagging concern that Jesus seems to be speaking against prudence, foresight and planning on the grounds that it is completely futile. Is it really better to live a hand-to-mouth, day-to-day existence than store away money in a 401(k) retirement plan? Exactly and in what sense do wild birds and lilies show us how to live?

Obviously, birds and lilies do not teach us literally how to live human lives. The birds and flowers are not models to imitate, but they are an example to us. If God pours care on wild birds and flowers, how much more does God care for us! It is what we call an a fortiori argument: If God cares so much for birds and flowers, how much more does God care for you, a human being, created in the image of God?

It is this faith in God’s care that allows us to live free, or at least struggle to live free of anxiety, for we know that God’s love for us transcends any of the expected or unexpected difficulties that life might throw at us. Isaiah speaks of God as a mother who cannot “forget her nursing child, or show no compassion for the child of her womb” (49:15). Maternal love is often the most powerful love—unconditional, lavish and limitless—that one has ever experienced. But, the prophet says, even if you can imagine mothers forgetting their children, God says, “yet I will not forget you.” God is presented here as the mother who always and without fail cares for our welfare.

Because of this love, with which God sustains and comforts us, we are encouraged to cut our entanglements with and dependence upon material possessions, for reliance on material goods leads us to seek security in them and not in God, as Pope Francis has been pointing out since the beginning of his pontificate as a challenge to the church. Possessions can be lost, destroyed and stolen. They do not last forever. As Jesus says, “You cannot serve God and wealth.” We need to decide who or what is our master.

That does not mean, however, that we should not act prudently and not plan for the future or that we do not need the things that sustain our earthly life. Jesus’ teachings are not about being indifferent to the practicalities of life, but about trusting God above all things. Jesus says we should “strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” For those of us who struggle most with anxiety, we can start with the promise that we need “not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” We can start trusting in God today and dealing with each problem one day at a time.

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Bruce Snowden
4 years 5 months ago
Jesus tells us (me) “Do not worry.” This has to be rooted in Omniscience wherein God who knows all things, the whole story, its ins and outs, its final outcome, tells elsewhere quite consistently (consistency an attribute of God) that “Worry is useless!” I’ve discovered that myself, discovering that worry solves no problem, but instead adds to the burden. So I try not to worry, but worry still creeps in through the cracks in the unfirmness of my resolution. Questions arise. How does one not worry about finances for example, when money becomes so tight that old folks take medication every other day so as to make their meds last longer awaiting the next paycheck to renew the prescription? I haven’t reach that point yet, but the practice is pretty common among seniors. Or how can seniors in their seventies and eighties not worry as they are on the brink of uprooting to move in with a child and family in a far off place, pooling incomes to prevent their child’s foreclosure? How do lilies and birds play a helpful role? I’m hard pressed for an answer but have noticed how diligently the hummingbird for example, darts from flower, to flower, in search of its “daily bread” leaving nothing to chance, but relying on the Providence of God to supply its need, without ever knowing its source, having simple trust linked to personal effort sort of Ignatian in style, in which that great man, Ignatius of Loyola once said, work as if everything depended on self, like the hummingbird, but pray as we human do, as if everything depended on God which it does. And the lily, whether blooming in a well groomed garden, or on a dung heap, still manages to allure with a fragrance uniquely all its own, blooming productively wherever life’s unpredictability plants it. And what about that other “flower of the field” the Carrion flower that emits an odor that smells like rotting flesh? Even that miserable stench glorifies God who can make use of it's attractiveness to scavenger flies. So then, even when life “stinks” so to speak, Faith tells that God can make use of it! Yet my anxious heart remains, ever anxious, ever restless even after finding God, a God who is so ethereal. But then I find the God I need, the one who smells like me, so to speak, Jesus, truly God, truly Man, who went through his own personal hell, who even so tells me “Do not worry” explaining further that “Worry is useless.” So, despite of life’s personal spiritual arrhythmias, I will trust that no matter the dung that will come my way I trust that in his own way and in his own time I will see the light! That takes some doing, a life time of doing!

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