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Greg KandraFebruary 02, 2009

After my ordination as a deacon for the Diocese of Brooklyn in May 2007, with my head still swimming from the incense and my ears still ringing with the Litany of Saints, I clicked on my computer and, in an act of either madness or inspiration (I’m still not sure which), did something that would mysteriously and permanently change my life.

I started a blog.

For the less Web-savvy, a blog is a “Web log,” a kind of online journal for posting ideas, opinions, news, videos, songs—almost anything. I am hardly a pioneer. Blogs have been around for a decade or so, and one of the most engaging Catholic sites is maintained by Boston’s Cardinal Seán O’Malley. But I did not know of many deacons who were blogging. I picked a name that I hoped would sum up what it was all about: “The Deacon’s Bench: Where a Roman Catholic Deacon Ponders the World.”

Into the Blogosphere

The months that followed were a revelation. I saw firsthand both the promise and the peril of the Internet. And I found myself rubbing elbows with readers from around the world who, to quote a friend of mine, may have been Catholic but sometimes forgot they were Christian.

At first I had intended to use my little corner of the Internet to dump my Sunday homilies and post news items about deacons and vocations, but I soon decided to broaden my scope. Anything Catholic was fair game. I started trolling Catholic Web sites, diocesan newspapers, anything my Google search turned up.

I also started dropping by other Catholic blogs. Many were staunchly conservative and fiercely partisan regarding politics. Others devoted considerable time and energy to reporting the latest news about schismatic traditionalist Catholic groups or the Tridentine Mass. None of this appealed to me much. Instead I wanted to stake out territory that was home to most American Catholics, or at least those I encountered in my ministry: the observant and thoughtful churchgoing people who were curious about the faith, showed up every Sunday for Mass with their envelopes and sleepy children, and did not cling to extremes of either the right or the left. I was looking to capture the middle ground. But how could I get people to read this stuff?

I turned to an old friend of mine, Elizabeth Scalia (the blogger known as the Anchoress) for advice. She recommended, among other things, lots of links. In a show of bloggerly solidarity, she started making reference to my little site regularly on her own blog. Others took notice. The Catholic writer Amy Welborn mentioned the site on her blog and added “The Deacon’s Bench” as a permanent link. Traffic began to pick up.

I added a “site meter” to my page, which tracked how many people were reading it and where they were coming from. At first, it was a few hundred readers a week. A huge number of them, I was amused to discover, were do-it-yourselfers—carpenters or furniture makers who ended up at my blog after doing a Google search for information about how to build a deacon’s bench.

The Perils of Popularity

Over time, more established bloggers began linking to “The Deacon’s Bench,” most notably Rocco Palmo, whose “Whispers in the Loggia” blog has evidently become required reading in every chancery in America. “New Advent,” another site, began listing some of my writings in its daily list of notable blog posts.

Readers began to leave encouraging comments. I was pleasantly surprised when the site meter showed readers from Manila, London, South Africa and even Rome. Someone from Dreamworks Studios in Hollywood was reading it. I saw Web addresses for chanceries in Chicago, Los Angeles, Atlanta and Brooklyn. Even people from the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops in Washington were reading me. So were Catholics of every stripe, who were not shy about sharing their opinions.

At times, it seemed as if people were quietly measuring me and my blog to see if I was “Catholic enough.” Soon after the site launched, I found a YouTube clip from “The Simpsons” showing what Marge imagined “Catholic heaven” was like: brawling drunken Irishmen and piñata-whapping Hispanics. I thought it was a riot, and posted a link to it on Father’s Day. One reader commented: “Twenty centuries filled with examples of heroic Catholic fatherhood and we get the Simpsons??? D’oh!”

Another time, when I posted a link to one of my essays in America, a commenter sniffed, “I look forward to the day your work will appear in a Catholic publication.”

Political Controversy

Nothing sparks debate (or fuels outrage) like politics. A news item I posted in summer 2008 unexpectedly landed like a live grenade. Barack Obama had invited an 86-year-old Sister of St. Joseph, Sister Catherine Pinkerton, to offer a prayer at the Democratic National Convention. I posted the story without comment under the headline from the original news story: “Nun to Offer Prayer at Democratic Convention.”

The reaction was swift. First, I was excoriated for calling her a “nun”—nuns live in a cloister, I was scolded, and this woman does not even wear a habit. Then there was the problem that she appeared to be forming an alliance with a political party that favors abortion rights. One reader said that if this woman lived in his diocese, she would be denied Communion. (I was not aware that praying at a convention without endorsing any candidate was a canonically punishable offense. Someone should notify Cardinal Roger Mahony, who offered the prayer at the Democratic National Convention in 2000.)

A notable absence from the convention did not fail to draw readers’ notice either: Denver’s Archbishop Charles Chaput. “How come the sanctimonious Democrats choose to offend all U.S. Catholics by snubbing him?” a reader wrote. “It’s utterly disgraceful. No Catholic, regardless of canonical state, should in any way, shape or form support B. H. Obama for President.”

Another reader, after visiting the Web site for the Sisters of St. Joseph, noted: “I wonder how many vocations her order had this year? Hopefully they’ll fade away soon.”

Those were some of the kinder comments. Confronting this sort of frat house sensibility, with all its belching and braying and foot stomping, I began to despair. Was this what 21st- century communication had come to?

Fortunately, no.

Reaching Out Through Cyberspace

Last year I noticed an upturn in readership around the time of Pope Benedict’s visit to America. Men who were interested in the diaconate were reading the blog and writing in, eager for more information. A woman whose niece was undergoing a sex-change operation wrote me, wondering how she should deal with it. (I directed her to the U.S. bishops’ pastoral letter Always Our Children.) A 17-year-old boy from Portugal who was struggling with his faith wrote in to ask for prayers. A deacon from Australia invited me to submit an essay for the vocations fair during World Youth Day. People were finding their way to “The Bench.” I was pleased.

Then, one night in August, on the eve of the Feast of the Assumption, I decided to check my e-mail before going to bed. There was an item in my inbox titled, “I lost one of my students today.” I sat down and took a deep breath. It was from a Catholic teacher in Newark, N.J. One of his pupils, a 15-year-old boy, had been shot and killed that morning while sleeping in his own bedroom. News reports said a neighbor downstairs had been handling a rifle that had gone off accidentally.

The teacher was devastated. He told me that he wrote because he just needed to get it off his chest. “I am stricken with grief at a time when my heart would otherwise be elated—but I know my young student, my child, celebrates this feast in the arms of the Blessed Mother,” he wrote, and asked for prayers for himself, his students and the boy who had been killed.

I did not know what to say. I wrote back to him, offering a few words of consolation, and told him I would pray for him. But something, I felt, had changed.

The flickering words on a computer screen spoke of something greater, and deeper, and sadder than anything else I had encountered in my months of blogging. In the middle of all the bickering in the blogosphere, I had encountered a moment of unexpected grief and profound grace—beautiful, heartbreaking, soul-wrenching grace.

A World of Grace

If nothing else, the Internet makes us acutely aware of this: the world is bigger than we realize and smaller than we expect. We are bound together in ways we cannot even imagine. I have learned a lot since I began blogging, but the greatest lesson may be that we are catholic, which means we are universal, and that we are everything and everyone, for better or for worse.

It just might be that of all the forms of communication, the Internet is the most catholic; the Web is truly universal. Blogs, chat rooms and online forums have be-come our confessionals, our pulpits, our sanctuaries. My friend the An-choress has even experimented with posting morning and evening prayer on her site, complete with chants, creating something like a monastic cyber-choir for countless anonymous souls seeking spiritual refreshment. (Behold: you can now sanctify the day with a keyboard and mouse.)

Of course, no computer screen or comment box can replace the sense of community found in a gathering of like-minded souls, huddled in a hushed and darkened temple, surrounded by lit candles and smoldering incense, raising their hearts and voices to God. To be church, you need more than a screen name and an e-mail address. Yet I cannot help but think this technology offers wondrous possibilities. Here is a new way to evangelize, to learn, to teach, to build community. Who knows? Maybe the era of fish fries and soup suppers and pancake breakfasts will eventually give way to online chats every Friday during Lent.

In the meantime, I go on blogging. At last count, “The Deacon’s Bench” was averaging about 50,000 visitors a month. Whenever I start to feel cocky about that, I just check my site meter for what they were searching for, and I am quickly brought back to earth.

A lot of them are still looking for advice about furniture.

Greg Kandra talks about blogging.

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14 years 4 months ago
Great article, Greg. Thanks. As pastor of a busy parish, I've long wanted to start a blog basically to share my own thoughts, comments and perspectives with parishioners, friends, and beyond, and to stimulate conversation and dialogue. Recovering from surgery the last few weeks has given me the opportunity to do so, and your article has given me encouragement to keep it up. http://twlegacy.blogspot.com
14 years 4 months ago
Keep up the good work, Deacon Greg! You do a wonderful job of blogging about the faith. Keeping you in my prayers here in Florida.
Maria Salazar
14 years 4 months ago
Deacon Greg, I am so glad to have read this tonight as I was on the verge of quitting blogging last night. I read your blog regularly, as it's become one of my favorite spots on the Internet. Every now and then I find myself getting very discouraged by comments in the in-boxes of many blogs and forums I read. I often wonder what possesses fellow Catholics to be so uncharitable and unkind to others. I remember some of the examples you talked about in this piece and I remember some of those comments. I'm glad that you didn't let any of that discourage you. What you wrote in this piece rings true. I will never have the readership that you do, but I enjoy blogging and sharing my reflections from my Catholic experience and am encouraged to continue to do so.
Maria Evans
14 years 4 months ago
As the owner of a blog that is basically a spirituality-based blog (with some occasional snarky humor thrown in on the side), the greatest joy I've discovered in the blogosphere is a deepening and broadening of my spiritual community, and it leading to an actual community of "real people" in my life. I started my blog with the desire to remain semi-anonymous so that I could expose some of my deeper thoughts/fears/doubts about God. As time went on, I developed a small following of like-minded indidviduals. Eventually many of us "outed" ourselves on Facebook, and started knowing the person behind the blog moniker. There is a small dynamo of prayer energy that exudes from this group and it crosses some "liturgical Christianity" boundaries in a way the local church might not--this little knot of Episcopalians, Lutherans, and Roman Catholics, mostly. We find ourselves rejoicing with each other, praying for each other, and most importantly, taking this energy back to our local parishes and continuing to grow in faith in our home church communities. Cyberspace makes me understand one of the benefits of "pilgrimage"--to commune with other believers in other places.
14 years 4 months ago
Well done! I have not visited any blogs to date although I am on the computer far too much. (In fact, there are times when I wonder if the computer is my new "strange gods before me" that I worship.) This is such a fine idea. The truth of the matter is that there is really no public forum of any sort at the parochial level where moral concepts can be examined and sorted in a forthright way. On occasion I have wished that I could raise my hand at the end of a homily and say, "What would you think about this take on that subject?" We have sort of rested on our laurels since the end of Vatican II, as if all was done. The unexamined life is not worth living...who was it who said that?
14 years 4 months ago
Deacon Greg ~ I discovered your blog in the last month or so and have found myself to be a regular visitor to the site. In fact, The Deacon's Bench has become my primary Catholic blog as it brings to me news, insight, humor (and more)--all well written.
14 years 4 months ago
I've kept a blog for a few years, and agree the Internet has power to expand our world and make it more personal at the same time. John www.JohnWren.com
14 years 4 months ago
Nice article, Deacon Greg. You do a great job of being charitable and welcoming on your blog--and last I heard, hospitality was a major biblical ethic to emulate!--so thanks for sticking with it.
Paul Louisell
14 years 4 months ago
Could theinternet be Theilhard's nuogenesis?
14 years 4 months ago
Thank you ! I'm a highschool teacher of English in Belgium. Reading your article,at home this morning in my little country, makes me feel so much part of a bigger community. Such a lovely way to start a day. I'm not too comfortable with everything I could do on the internet, but some aspects of it are just life-giving. Thanks again.
14 years 4 months ago
Father Kandra, This is a very refreshing article --- blogsite. It is very hard to find an open-minded catholic priest these days, especially one whose writings don't make me feel guilty for "wondering what type of blood" runs through the veins of most catholic bishops. I will be a frequent visitor to your site and will share the site with other christians who think outside the box. For laughs, no I am not a carpenter. But, I am a christian, a catholic who remains and thinks outside the box and have a difficult time tolerating sactimonious priests (especially bishops) who tend to forget that God IS still in charge --- and Jesus SAVES and FORGIVES the sinner!!
14 years 4 months ago
Hi, Greg. As a new blogger, I was encouraged by your article. I'm the Administrator of a formation program for Lay Leaders here in the Diocese of Trenton. After hearing Michael Hayes (Busted Halo) speak about the opportunities to reach people through cyberspace, I was convinced this is someplace we, as Church, need to go. Now the Diocese of Trenton has three blogs, which you can visit by going to www.dioceseoftrenton.org and hitting the blogs button at the top left of the page. There's a shortcut to the Lay Ecclesial Ministry page (mine) at www.lemsinthevineyard.org. Your article confirmed my own conviction - blogging is a tool that can evangelize, instruct, and connect people to God and to each other. Our Bishop (John M. Smith) has lately been preaching on the "method" used by Jesus in His ministry. Bishop says Jesus "found, formed and linked" people to create a community of worship and service for the sake of the Kingdom. I see the blogging world as doing exactly what Jesus did.
14 years 3 months ago
Very interesting article, but Mr. Kandra why do you want to trot out the stale old canard about the "brawling drunken Irish"?: Insulting the very people who helped so much the fledgling American Church and Catholic schools with priests and nuns over so many decades. Shame on you Greg! and shame on you Rev. editor for letting it pass. Siochainn libh! Eamon Murphy.
14 years 1 month ago
I just read one of your past blogs about the glory of blogging. But I also read you every day and I love what you write. Inspiring. Elating. Enriching. I hope you win the award. Thank you for being my Catholic brother.I'll see you in heaven. Marie Jutras.
14 years ago
Hi Deacon Greg. Thank you for your always entertaining blog. More power...

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