The National Catholic Review

September 19, 2011

Vol. 205 No. 7Whole No. 4944 Download PDF


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Respect for Life?; Family Matters; An iBishop?
The Universal Call
It is time for the church to make the canonization process far more accessible and far less expensive.


Syria In Crisis
Margot Patterson

From 2011, Margot Patterson on the outbreak of sectarian strife.

Nature and Grace
Patricia A. Kossmann
Book briefs

Books and Culture

A Different Path
Bill Williams
How men and women religious responded to 9/11.
On the Rise
Leo J. O'Donovan
Educating the next generation in leadership
Something to Love
James S. Torrens
A guide to modern poetry, reviewed
Greene Without God
Because it rejects the theology underlying the original novel, 'Brighton Rock' fails to deliver

Columns and Departments

The Word
Saying and Doing
Barbara E. Reid
Faith in Focus
Joan's Journey
B. G. Kelley
Mr. Smith vs. Washington
John J. DiIulio, Jr.
Of Many Things
Of Many Things
Karen Sue Smith
Vowed to this life
Mary Kay Schoen

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  A Father's Love
Kerry Weber
As Patty Fallone and a friend walked down Park Avenue in New York on a sunny September morning, they were stopped by a stranger. “Did you hear about the plane?” the man asked. If his face hadn’t been so serious, his comment could have been the opening line of a joke. Neither woman yet knew about the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11, so when the man conveyed the news, it took a moment for its significance to register. Patty looked south. Beyond the Met Life building a few blocks away, she saw smoke rising from the midst of Lower Manhattan. “Oh my God,” she said knowing, without yet being told, “My husband is dead.” Patty was certain that, if the emotions she felt at that moment were reflected in her face, her expression would be seared into that stranger’s memory for the rest of his life. Suddenly, Patty's world moved in slow motion. Patty, who was then 35, stepped off the curb, unthinking, into the street, cars whizzing past; her friend pulled her back onto the sidewalk and led her inside. From her friend’s apartment, Patty called St. Ignatius Loyola School where her four children were enrolled. She instructed the staff not to say anything to them until she arrived. She called her therapist, and then sat down in front of the TV. In her shock, she couldn’t quite remember whether her husband Anthony, 39, a bonds trader at Cantor Fitzgerald, worked in the North or South tower. I want to find his body, she thought. Then, as she watched the second tower fall, she no longer felt that need. When she arrived at St. Ignatius, it was crowded with parents, and a part of Patty was surprised. In some ways she felt as if it these events were happening only to her. Had everyone lost someone? she wondered. Most of the students were brought to the gym. The Fallone children—Katie, 11; Alexandra, 10; Anthony, 7; and Patrick, who, at 5, had just started his first full day of kindergarten—were brought instead to the principals’ office. When they entered, Patty could tell that her girls already suspected the worst. Accompanied by the school’s principal, a psychologist, and Walter Modrys, S.J., then pastor of St. Ignatius Loyola parish, Patty looked at her children. Her younger daughter’s face is still a vivid memory. There was nothing to do but tell them. “The building Daddy worked in was blown up and Daddy died,” Patty said. “What if he made it out?” one child asked hopefully. “He didn’t,” she said. And then she looked around at the other adults in the room. No one had any answers. I’m on my own, Patty thought. To her kids, she continued: “I am here. We are here. We’re safe. I’m here to take care of you.” The Long Road Home Patty waited with the children at her friend’s house until someone could drive them to their home on Roosevelt Island, a thin, two-mile-long strip of land between Manhattan and Queens. The Fallones had been an active part of its diverse, close-knit community. Even in the midst of her mourning, Patty worried about the men who worked at the neighborhood deli, one from Egypt and one from Palestine. She hoped neither was the target of bigotry or misdirected anger. She wanted to make sure that her neighborhood, her “diverse little world” as she called it, didn’t disappear along with her husband. Roosevelt Island was a place where even the people who Patty didn’t know smiled at her and at her husband Anthony, who had been a kind of larger-than-life presence in the neighborhood. Patrick, their son, had attended public pre-school on the island, and many of the mothers remained close. So in many ways, it wasn’t surprising when a group of these mothers showed up together at Patty’s door in the days following Sept. 11. They sat down, and one of them suggested they all hold hands and say a little prayer. So the women—Jewish, Christian and Muslim—joined together and prayed for healing. Ten days after the attacks, an even larger group gathered for an interfaith memorial service at Patty’s request. The Catholic memorial Mass for Anthony would be held the next day, a Saturday, but Patty wanted a service that included the community in which her family lived. Her brother-in-law and sister-in-law wondered if both services were necessary, but Patty insisted. “This is what my family needs to do, and this is what our community needs,” she told them. Her in-laws attended, and as they watched group of neighborhood children sit cross-legged on the floor around an altar in an ecumenical chapel, they were happy they’d come. The next day, about 20 blocks from where she’d learned of Anthony’s death, a memorial Mass was held in Anthony’s name at St. Ignatius Loyola church. Outside of the church bagpipers wailed a mournful song on their instruments, hired by a mother from the school. It was a moving sight, but also one that caused a few friends of the very-Italian Anthony to wonder whether they were at the correct location. The scene inside proved they were: the church was packed with friends, families from the school and people who just needed a place to mourn, a place to feel closer to God. Patty had always felt a close relationship with God. She was active in her Catholic parish, attended retreats and had a strong sense of the goodness in this world. And somehow she found that Anthony’s death, the attacks, the terrorists didn’t change that. Couldn’t change that. She drew strength, also, from Father Modrys’s confidence in her ability to handle both the funeral preparations and the life that lay ahead. “He let me do what I felt I needed to do,” Patty said. But as they planned the ceremony, she looked at him and said, “I have to be honest, I will not gain any comfort from scripture; it’s my faith in God that’s getting me through this.” Father Modrys chose the readings. Patty had other choices to make. She chose not to blame God. She chose to make the best of her situation. Every day, she chose to get up every morning and go on living. “I felt like people needed to see us being ok, and if we could be ok then they could be ok,” she said. “And a lot of people didn’t know if they could be ok.” How, exactly, to make things ok was only one of the many questions Patty faced in the months following the attacks. None had easy answers, especially a bedtime inquiry posed by her son Anthony. Why, he asked, would a person fly a plane into a building to kill someone? Patty thought for a moment. She could have blamed any number of things: war, terrorism, religion. But Patty knew that the question was about hate, what it compels people to do, how it hollows people out. “It’s like Star Wars," she told her son, “You have the force and the dark side, and it’s in each one of us. What made Anakin turn to the dark side is that he became angry and resentful, and the dark side took over. Jesus tells us to fight the darkness within us to be that good person inside.” For the 8-year-old, it worked. But for Patty, this choice, between dark and light, good or evil, was rooted not in a Hollywood blockbuster but a deeply rooted theology. “The whole point is we have free will,” she said. “God clearly allows people to do what people choose to do. If he stepped in every time a mistake was going to happen, then that’s not free will. It’s the same attitude for raising kids: You want to raise happy, independent, self-sufficient adults. You don’t want to just have an older version of who they were at 12.”  Talking to the Father Patty and her husband were not the type to ask, “Why me?” But after 9/11 others asked the question for her, wondering aloud why the Fallones, who loved so much, who lived life so fully, had to suffer this way. Patty could only answer: “Does someone else deserve it?” For Patty, the question of why was always less important that the question: What now?
  A Sibling's Strength
Kerry Weber
Ten years after 9/11, Laura Armstrong helps keep her brother's memory alive.